tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-18459370921950821722024-02-19T21:35:31.714-05:00Abbey our CKCS-Cavalier King Charles Spaniel and her family's Syringomyelia JourneyWe lost our battle on January 3, 2012 and had to put our beautiful princess down. Please spread the word on this awful disease. When I wrote this blog I told everything I was feeling and it's pretty emotional but tells all that I felt. Abbey had my heart on Day 1Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.comBlogger73125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-18483810770654887542013-01-09T19:16:00.003-05:002013-01-09T19:16:47.418-05:00Oh my dearest Abbey. It has been one year and 6 days that you left us. I think of you all the time and miss you so much. I still have your picture on my desk at work along with the poem and your painting hangs by the kitchen. I know you are running and no longer in pain. I hope you have found your way to meet my Mom as I know she would love you to death and introduce to your brothers and sisters that left before you. I love you Abbey. Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-6820845956755007852012-06-13T14:00:00.002-04:002012-06-13T14:03:09.293-04:00Sitting at work and looking at your picture. Been thinking of you alot. I sure do miss our nightly butt rubs. You so loved your butt rubbed and that was our bedtime ritual. It's so hard to believe that it's almost 6 months since we lost our battle. We are doing well Abbey. You are so embedded in my heart and out of the blue you will enter my mind. I haven't forgotten you and never will. I hope you are running and free of the pain. You so deserve it. I love you.
I so hope that people are coming to your page and it's helping them. I never get comments so can only hope. I truly did my best to bring awareness on this awful disease and I truly hope your life wasn't in vain.
We miss you.
MomAbbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-61789736698945844462012-01-07T16:23:00.001-05:002012-06-13T13:57:39.745-04:00Miss her so muchMy emotions are on a roller coaster. I miss her so much and the pain is unbearable.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-46587095878015099872009-04-01T10:50:00.000-04:002012-06-13T13:57:39.733-04:00Day 29--wasn't going to write but it was another bad night and I'm exhausted. I don't understand all of this and Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-32516987282138386512009-10-02T14:24:00.000-04:002012-06-13T13:57:39.714-04:00Results are inAbbeys results came back today from the tumor removed on monday. It was benign. A benign mast cell tumor. Great news!!!Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-31789541139609791702012-01-07T11:52:00.002-05:002012-06-13T13:57:39.702-04:00I can't stop crying. I miss her so much.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-13616467846661785252012-01-07T11:53:00.003-05:002012-06-13T13:57:39.690-04:00I miss her.It's only been 3.5 days and feels like months. I have cried more than anybody knows. I miss her so much.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-13541568563940831722009-04-20T13:24:00.000-04:002012-06-13T13:57:39.680-04:007 weeks--Well, its the 7 week mark and things are getting back to pretty much normal. She is still doing well. She sleeps very well at night and is still on the gabapentin but does go over 8 hrs. In the morning when I do wake up she sometimes rubs her head. At our last visit with the neurologist he did say she would be on the gabapentin for at least 3 more months so time will tell. I sure hope she gets off of itAbbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-11003699920421499012009-03-24T08:22:00.001-04:002012-06-13T13:57:39.664-04:003 weeks--Wowsers we're at the halfway mark!!! Dr. Shores told us 6 weeks but we shall see on that one. We have an appt. on April 7th with both Dr. Shores and dermatologist. She needs to get a job here!!! She is doing so much better. This a.m. though she did wake me up--the first time since starting all the allergy meds etc. She was wimpering like she wanted out. Let her out and on the bed she came--remember I have the mattress on the floor with no box spring--amazing what we do for our animals. She was scratching a bit so up we went and gave her her meds and took her out. She never did scratch again or anything after leaving the bedroom so who knows. Maybe just wanted out.
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<br />I think I'm getting more antsy now for this recooperation period to be over. The weather is soooooooooooooo beautiful where I am right now--sunny and temperatures in the Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-10854242283267412272009-03-15T11:11:00.000-04:002012-06-13T13:57:39.648-04:00Not alot to report. I was up with her at 5 a.m. and gave her gabapentin and again it was 6 hrs. after her last dosage. I am finding like I said that she starts between 5 a.m. - 6 a.m. with scratching etc. Went back to bed Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-76648381015550786922012-02-09T11:58:00.002-05:002012-02-09T12:07:04.463-05:00Been a monthThinking of Abbey so much the past 24 hours. Today while driving to work the sunrise was like the gateway to heaven and I felt her looking down on me and telling me she was ok. I miss her so much. Yesterday when I got home from work I had an e-mail from an American gal living near Paris that I could feel her pain so deeply reading and knew everything she was feeling. She was taking her baby in today to a neuro and I'm praying for them and I know so well the fears and all she's going through. I mentioned to George last night that sometimes I regret putting her down and then after hearing him I so well remember how she was. It just stinks that she wasn't even 8 years old. I know I'm lucky I had her for the time I did but I want more!!!<br /><br />I miss you so much princess.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-41722319963854199582012-01-24T06:33:00.002-05:002012-01-24T06:36:26.239-05:003 weeks today we put you out of your misery and I've had my doubts the last few days of whether we did the right thing or not. A dear friend of mine reminded me of why we did what we did and thank god knocked some sense into me. I was so afraid of coming home from work or the middle or the night waking up to you paralyzed and in uncontrollable pain. You were like a zombie--no emotion showed on you anymore. I would love you and give you kisses and you'd have a blank stare. Those two things is why my sweet love--plus losing your muscle balance and falling constantly. I sure do miss you.<br /><br />Love,<br /><br />MomAbbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-27135884143533107792012-01-21T16:13:00.003-05:002012-01-21T16:24:46.531-05:00<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFM0GJHmRO_pKA3X8xOonA_4r5ocuHDcg5nzcWSEnU02l7VxZCPweurhKbWXVUlWgX1-tCFakwjeig7fUZ2r4rV6ZooJKDo-rliEr2MK0x0E6y0E-bMi2gFM_X-fiQ6k65TWY86f4k86k/s1600/imagesCAAQVD9B.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 270px; height: 187px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgFM0GJHmRO_pKA3X8xOonA_4r5ocuHDcg5nzcWSEnU02l7VxZCPweurhKbWXVUlWgX1-tCFakwjeig7fUZ2r4rV6ZooJKDo-rliEr2MK0x0E6y0E-bMi2gFM_X-fiQ6k65TWY86f4k86k/s320/imagesCAAQVD9B.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5700198673183428130" /></a><br /><br />Happy Birthday to my dear Abbey. 16 days ago you left us and the house is so empty without you. I know you are having a great birthday running and meeting new friends and finally out of pain. We miss you and I sure wish you were here so we could celebrate. Life is so unfair sometimes. Your life was so short. I know you knew what you meant to me and I showed you all the time how much I loved you.<br /><br />RIP and run run run.<br /><br />I love you.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-16641877901081197732012-01-20T06:06:00.002-05:002012-01-20T06:09:21.984-05:00Oh my sweet Abbey. Tomorrow would have been your 8th birtday. Thinking of you so much right now. I miss you but believe it or not my sweet princess I am doing relatvely well. I know you are finally free of this awful disease. I hope you have a wonderful pain free day tomorrow and you are treated so very special as you are so special. We miss you so much and you will never ever be forgotten. You stole my heart on day one and everybody always told me they could tell you were the specal one.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-15436314840584361332012-01-15T09:40:00.002-05:002012-01-15T09:45:50.317-05:0012 days now of not having you and I keep saying over and over how much I miss you. I look in yor usual places and you are gone. Your pills are sent to somebody with SM dogs and are gone. All your other medications are put away in a cupboard. Your non-skid socks are put away and no longer see them in the laundry. Your bed in our bedroom is put away and the blanket we had in it is gone and tucked out of sight. I know I've been grieving for a very long time--I think it started around June (right before my knee replacement surgery) so been grieving 7 months. I sure miss that "old" Abbey. I don't miss the one that we took to the vet 12 days ago. I am so lucky to have had you 7.5 years--short time for sure but I cheerish every day we had with you.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-74089799294339702252012-01-12T08:08:00.002-05:002012-01-12T08:12:40.649-05:009 daysAt work and fighting the tears. You did so much in your short life. You helped educate so many people about this very ugly disease. I used to tell you all the time I wished you could tell me what it truly felt like and how much pain you were in etc. and you couldn't. I had a human live being contact me once in a message and unfortunately didn't leave an e-mail and told me that it was painful but all you wanted was our love. Well you certainly got that. You couldn't have been more loved. Well, I hope this isn't going to be a crying day at work as I don't think my co-workers understand. At least the two right by me--many others here do understand. I was driving to work today and thinking that it's almost your birthday. Oh my sweet Abbey why didn't we wait until after your birthday. I know why because once I saw the "true" you I couldn't take it.<br /><br />I love you my sweet princess and miss you even more.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-74762740123953146212012-01-10T21:56:00.002-05:002012-01-10T21:58:54.625-05:00One weekIt seems like its been weeks since you left us and only been 7 days. I miss you so much Abigail. Sometimes it's very hard being without you and the tears flow. Bedtime is the worst. I'm going to find somebody that can paint a picture of you from a photo and put over our bed. I love you Abbey.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-55509013920681530112012-01-07T16:24:00.001-05:002012-01-07T16:25:41.019-05:00Miss herIt's only been 4 days since she left us and seems like eternity. My emotions are on a roller coaster and at times unable to function. I don't know how I managed to get my body to work this week. The pain is unbearable.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-40988230303793146302011-12-31T18:07:00.003-05:002011-12-31T18:09:41.039-05:00I'm having a horrible time and have shed so many tears lately. I believe at least I think I do--my emotions are on a roller coaster right now-that she is ready to go. I think she's plain tired of this disease. I looked on the blog on her pictures after her surgery and she obviously was in pain there and she looks like that now. The picture of her in the playpen with her tongue hanging out is how she looks.<br /><br />God help us reach a decision. This is so dang hard and love her so much.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-13612567688313397902010-12-21T13:48:00.002-05:002010-12-21T13:53:17.706-05:00Almost 2 years laterAs you can tell I haven't been real good about posting. Its been almost 2 years now since we figured out what was wrong with her and about 3 more months it will be 2 years since her surgery. Its hard to come up with something to say but I will say that she is doing well. She sometimes has bad days which even then her bad days are nothing like they were 2 years ago. One thing I thought of the other day which was a BIG positive was that I have not witnessed a seizure since right after surgery and when she had the surgery she did have multiple seizures within days of the surgery. I think this is GREAT. She is still on the same meds that she was a year ago. I have since gone back to work and we are giving meds at 8, 4 p.m. and about midnight. This is going well. I have learned to deal with this awful disease and don't get as stressed as I used to even though I will never like seeing her scratch or rub her head etc.<br /><br />If you need to talk to somebody I will always be here for you. Please e-mail me at the link on the blog or at<br /><br />linderbelle52@hotmail.com<br /><br />Soon on a sunny day I will post a video of her.<br /><br />MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-17966638755879158412009-12-11T09:13:00.002-05:002009-12-11T09:17:04.899-05:00VideoI was into the site Cavalier Talk a couple days ago and there was a post by a gal who just had to put her Ollie down because of sm and Ollie had had the surgery. My heart just ached for them both. Like she said everybody deals with it in their own way but I felt bonded to this woman especially she lives in Florida and I live in Georgia so we are not far apart in distance either.<br /><br />Today I watched the video of Abbey which I probably haven't watched in at least 5 months. My stomach feels like I need to run to the bathroom. It feels so fresh in my mind again to see her like that and I thank god right now that she's not like that anymore and I pray even harder that she doesn't get worse with time. <br /><br />Like I said in previous posts she does still show symptoms and I do get scared at times but today after watching that video again I feel that God is watching over both of us.<br /><br />She's my little "princess".Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-64517538701980803782010-01-30T21:53:00.000-05:002009-12-10T11:32:33.543-05:00Video of Abbey's symptoms--video NOT shot all at once--multiple times when different symptoms appeared<object width="425" height="344"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/6P4Zo0PpRCo&hl=en&fs=1"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/6P4Zo0PpRCo&hl=en&fs=1" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="425" height="344"></embed></object>Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-9366863536588730882009-12-10T11:23:00.003-05:002009-12-10T11:28:37.442-05:002 months since last postingTime just flies and I need to write an update no matter how boring it is. lol. It is now 9 months since Abbey had her surgery. She is about the same as the past few months. Still shows signs but not like before the surgery but does have bad days occasionally. If she shows symptoms once a day I don't like it. Last night at bedtime and had just given her her gabapentin and she had an episode. Probably in reality last 30 seconds. Held her leg up like a cramp and cried a little -more anguish sounding and rubbing head. I always pick her up when she does this but don't know if thats the right thing to do. Eventually put her down to allow her to deal with it the way she needed to. Off to bed we went and of course the princess sleeps on our bed--only one of the 4 that do. One is bad enough--lol. She still showed a little discomfort for a short period but then the pill must have kicked in. I still get scared as I love her so much and like I said she's my princess. I've said numerous times that we doubted if her symptoms would go away after surgery as she was misdiagnosed for so long BUT our goal was to stop the progression. She certain is not worse by any means so our goal has been accomplished. <br /><br />As you can see, I don't update that often anymore BUT I will every once in awhile as long as my dear Abbey is on this earth.<br /><br />Merry Christmas everybody.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-90584216357678957092009-10-02T14:24:00.001-04:002009-10-02T14:25:20.988-04:00Results are inAbbeys results came back today from the tumor removed on monday. It was benign. A benign mast cell tumor. Great news!!!Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1845937092195082172.post-52446639167078955272009-09-26T17:54:00.002-04:002009-09-26T17:57:42.362-04:00Last wednesday evening we felt a large lump on Abbey's neck--pretty close to where her incision was. I got her into the vet yesterday--friday. The vet said it is a mass--not a cyst or fat deposit. Needed to be removed asap as if it was much bigger it would be much harder to remove. We are having it removed on monday, 9/28. Please keep her in your prayers. We are very positive that this is not cancerous but of course it is possible. The vet and her neurologist to which we spoke to of course are both very positive. She means the world to us and its just not fair that she has all these problems at such a young age. I will post once I know more after the surgery.Abbey & Family's SM Journeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08866133558661156938noreply@blogger.com0